lazy.

LAZY!!!
ok thats all...haha

Sorry.

I apologise for not posting. Just being lazy.

Today went out with a friend and study. In the end, we went and chat and enjoy the night sky. 10.15pm then went home, as for me, I went to my workplace to chat with managers...haha then saw Zhi Cong and Angie(i think...)

So went home at 11am. Make my dinner, now going to wash.

Very tired...sleepy, so gd nite bloggy.

WOW?

Well, posting in school! Haha.
kk go back home post...nothing to say.

Nearing to death.

This time, my body is telling me that I am nearing to death. At 2.35am, my chest hurts, which is near my heart... The pain is like something is pressuring on it.

Hope you don't read this blog. Forget me, my blog, everything.

If all of you don't see in Monday, is either I am dead or in hospital.. The pain is killing me!

Today closing...Backsink! I finish at 12.40am. haha. Well, I push myself to to be faster, maybe this cause the pain on my chest. Who knows.. haha.

Anyway, the motivation for studying haven't come... But I believe is nearing..haha

I think I won't live long...I can feel it. The pain in my body, seems like my life is giving up itself. So hope all of you cherish your life and maintain a healthy lifestyle. Don't follow my footstep, in the end, you're the one suffering.

Goodbye blog. Maybe still alive tomorrow morning... depends. ^^

Okay.

I didn't drew any pictures 'cause no time... or lazy... ^^

I have been thinking for quite sometime.

If you don't want to have this friendship, then tell me.
If you don't want to talk to me, then tell me.
If you don't want to sit beside me, then tell me.

Just tell me what you want, i will compromise 'cause I know I did something wrong.

Also, don't cry for another person from the start if you don't like him. I don't give a shit if you.. nvm dun want continue the sentence. okay maybe after O's.

Now I don't deserve anyone of you all to forgive me for what I had done to you or your friends, Just forget this useless fool who don't cherish the moment. I have no impact in anyone of your life even I don't exists. So, I rather ride solo and move towards my SPF dreams. Maybe some friends will stay in touch, but might be a couple handful of you. Or you think I make a scar in your life, in terms of the lameness and the cold jokes, and you don't want to lose this entertainer...Then feel free to keep in touch and be Friends...

The song 'Something more' by Secondhand Serenade, is really the song for my feeling now...especially the 2nd verse and the chorus..
"I fooled everyone and now will I become..."
"There must be something more, do you know what we were fighting for..."

I m a jerk...A person who shouldn't deserve any forgiveness, you got the rights to hate me for this life, after life...Or maybe God shouldn't brought me into this life 'cause so many people's life affected because of me....

NVM. tomorrow will be my working day again and I m closing! haha.
So not in the mood for studies. Feel like sleeping all day.

okok..end of post.soon.

Coming post:
I believe the picture?Maybe.
Mood for studies?Soon.
Mood for sleeping?Is on and never off.
A night out to slack after O's?CALL ME OUT FOR GOD SAKE!!!!

so here we end and I head for bed..Gd night blog

Something More by Secondhand Serenade

I lie awake again
My body's feeling paralyzed
I can't remember when
I didn't live through this disguise

The words you said to me
They couldn't set me free
I'm stuck here in this life I didn't ask for

There must be something more
Do we know what we're fighting for
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

The storm is rolling in
The thunder is loud it hurts my ears
I'm paying for my sins
And it's gonna rain for years and years

I fooled everyone
And now what will I become
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more
Do we know what we're fighting for
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

I fooled everyone
Now what will I become
I have to start this over
I have to start this over

There must be something more
Do we know what we're fighting for
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

There must be something more
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
There must be something more

http://www.lyricsmode.com/

Last time.

I was thinking...I had treated unfairly. Others get to go out with you, without being question.. But when is me, I don't stand a F***king chance to do that. I think you should friends rather than a boyfriend, 'cause your friends are more important than your boyfriend. I didn't have a bit of trust from your parent, everything I wanted to do is questioned... Then, I rather find a new one. I hate people who have no trust and confident in me... I don't even have a chance to try to gain trust for your parent and I never had. ****P.S, don't bother to sms me or talk to me...**** Our friendship is ended when I last sms you, is over. Yes, I am jealous of it. Last time, I am your boyfriend and I never had that one to one moment. Now, I left your life, really wish your next boyfriend all the best and have the ability to withstand all the challenges he faces. I am happy that you left my life, I am able to see what kind of person are you... So bias...

I only can see the PERSON's attitude towards someone after I become an unknown person to that PERSON.

This feeling can be expressed by one song. Blind by Jason Derulo.

Sorry for the foul language used earlier, just wanted to vent my anger out-is like a volcano, must spill out smokes and lava- mine is only the smoke part only, my 'magma chamber' is building up everyday when I see you treat everyone better than me last time.

Sigh, nevermind, last time talking about her. NO MORE!! She is out of my facebook account, out of my contacts(hp and msn), out of my blog(posts and link) and OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!

Feel like drawing my feeling now...even though all stickman and lame drawing like houses and trees and tombstone. Haha, maybe will post some pic next time. Now, I am looking a prom date, maybe a girl in my class or go with jp's gang... It is ironic, I was expecting Tze Yi to scold me but he didn't..What a Bro.

At workplace, I have lots of ah bang and bros in there. Most is closer 'cause I myself is a closer! After O's, is a full timer for me! But sure make some days off so I can hangout with friends and family.

I had figure a way to improve my wheelie and still trying to find a way for bunny-hop... But my bike soon have a makeover.

So, 'smoke' came out, killed some people by the toxic gases. Now, it is non-active volcano, but it would be deadly once exploded..

Now, heading to bed... AND I WILL NEVER ACKNOWLEDGE THIS KIND OF FRIEND EVEN YOU ARE IN TROUBLE. So, byebye forever. I said it, I will do IT!

coming post:
Maybe the pic? hahas
Talk about myself again..
Talk my day or life...again.

I am so lame..haha

kk bb!! =D

3rd day of work.

I had been working for these 3 days and these days are all closing!!!

Also my hand injury have increase 50%! Got blisters because burnt by grill, cuts from equipment, cold cuts when in the freezer, open wounds from the blisters...

Glad you won't care anymore, 'cause I am an nobody to you anymore...

My phone is only like a mp3 to me only...only listen songs.. haha
There will be a handful of people will call or text, okay maybe not text, my workplace, family, and some friends from work... actually that's all.. only 3..

I also had been sleeping late, all the dark circles are forming again.. I took 1 week to clear some...

My friend say i look fairer... I think I didn't play basketball long enough in the sun...i rather look tanned... is nicer..haha black Vin..

My bike can finally make it's final changes... Also, people who doesn't know how to ride a bike, can find me. IN SG ONLY!!!! Now I can do a 50% wheelie...still trying to figure out how to do bunny-hop...

So, I guess that's all...

coming post:
Again, dunno what to write...so going to stick with my daily life again...haha

So, BB blog, see you later..

First day back to work.

It feels so weird when I start my work today...
But I got the feeling back and continue in my work as normal..

I dunno why but, I really want to get in the job I wanted...

Then, find a home where I could stay alone...maybe near the beach, 'cause I love a windy and quiet place... this is where i can finally put down all the troubles and relax, then play my favorite songs and no 1 will care...This is my way for having a wonderful life..

Some of my friends told me that I should privatize my blog because the content in my blog is too offensive... I agree with the offensive content, but i dun care because I never mention who... okay some have but not all, it is my personal thought and my opinion...if you can't take it, then don't read..no 1 is forcing you!!!

Anyway, this holiday is wasted because I had being sleeping everyday!!i meant throughout the each day... I slept during 2-3pm, then woke up at 10am, sleep back at 3am...

now is 3.10am...I will end the post now...Then play some more games...then head for bed...

coming post:
I dunno what to write anymore...
maybe mention some of my 'adventure' throughout the day
maybe talk more about the place i want to be in.

haha.. kk bb blog!

Trip alone.

Today, went to HPB alone for my follow up check up.

Wasted money: 20 bucks

The X-Ray for my backbone is shocking, like my X-Ray for my broken wrist.. The whole backbone bend so serious!! Wow...

Then, walk to Thiong Bahru like 6months ago... but everytime miss the stall which i wanted to eat..Guess next time go down early like mid-morning...I miss the taste of it!Anyone wants to go? Is really DELICIOUS! I guess tomorrow will go down and eat!! Anyone wants to go? Can text me or call me, I can bring you all go! But is not halal!!

My hand phone is pretty much dead...receive shit man...no one wants to text me... nvm, I chose the road, i face my consequences...

Oh, btw, I am the one who hurt her the most. Not the other way round... Sorry for all misleading post previously...

Let's don't talk about her anymore...Not worth it.

So let's end this post today...

Coming post:
Lame and lousy and broken English series...
My trip..maybe
And last but not least, NOT ABOUT HER!!!

so bb ^^

Moving on

No point talking to you or even write about you.

You left a hole in my heart, now it awaits the next person to fill it back.

You did the right thing, so am I.

You are able to forget me forever, is just that you don't want to do that.

Please, just leave by myself and you are able to move on with life.

I hope you and him will have a promising future. I know he can be playful and not serious most of the time, but I believe he can give you what i can't. He will the Mr.Right in your life, and he will give you the true meaning of happiness.

I will stick to be helpful to friends in need, i will use my time to help them when they are in trouble. But your trouble, it will leave to him to solve and answer.



I will move on, and you will move on with yours to with Mr.Right.


haha...coming post:
A bit more about me.
Less about her.
Violence? nah.
I am just kidding.
Nothing else...

so these 5 sentences form "ALVIN"!

kk see you tmr, blog.

outing again

Today went out friends, smoker friends...but i didn't smoke..haha

Also I quit for a week! congratulate to myself...haha so easy to stop...

and please just let me what i am now....no point telling me what to do or what i shouldn't, you are a nobody in my heart already....

i was about to give you a letter, but i think there is no point giving it liao.... hope he will give you what i can't...

forget about me, in terms of relationship or friendship or anything... but my classmates will never be forgotten...they taught me the bad things, so i can teach others not to do those things...haha

so so... nth nth to to post post liao liao... ...

bb bb... ... end end of of post post... ...

=D =D =) =) =P =P =] =]

Not sleeping yet...

Is 3.40am and i am still awake...

just now saw Jason Derulo's "what if" music video....really brings back those imagination that we both never meet...

If we never met, you won't be hurt so badly...
If we never met, you will still continue to like him...
If we never met, your life will be great...


sigh..nvm, let the past be past....no point complaining liao...

twitter acc.....thinking of creating 1 back...

nvm...cointinue post during afternoon.
bb

ByeBye

Glad that you forget me liao.

firstly, you block me from your private blog.
best 1st step ever.

secondly, i and you never talk or look at one another.
best 2nd step ever.

thirdly, you can move on with your life as i am out of yours.
best 3rd step ever.

fourthly, even i am really dying soon, i will do the breaking up more painful.
maybe dying..haha


nvm...she moved on, and i shall never mention her again anymore and move towards my dream and finally my coffin when my time is up....so the journey has begin and shall move on single and die single...dunno when i am going into that box, but i will enjoy while i lasts...haha

so your life after me will be wonderful and best. Hope you find a better boyfriend than me and forget all the good times we being through...



i was thinking, when we were together, you always tends to die...i guess now without me in your way of life, your life will be great! So have a great life!

great!

glad that you moved on...

i know i am a pest in the class, but after getting o's result, they r nth to me anymore...
i know everyone hates me...i know i created trouble and problems...

sigh..nvm... shld move on alone to my dream...once i gotten in, you all better watch out! chaos on the streets...haha jk..i wan to be ******, but not those on the road patrolling or mrt and buses patrolling...i want to be something else...maybe ***?

hahaha....kk dun talk to myself liao...thx all haters for this wonderful performance, i m so glad to have such great actors and actresses around me...thx for this wonderful play...i m happy to see you all try your best...thx again...i shld move on alone and no more play for you guys liao...hope u nvr find a person like me again...so you dun nid to lie to make him/her welcomed...

so, jobs everyday after o's....cos there is my happiness and my place for killing time...till the day when i get my o's results, then is byebye..but i will still go back and see my FRIENDS there...not those actors and actresses....

thoughts.

i was thinking to do 1 thing..

but i think this should be done..

i will do it this sat! so be ready...
haha maybe fri...haha